"I don’t always clean my room, but when I do, it’s a metaphor for trying to organize my entire life." - Internet meme found on Pinterest that is so relevant right now ahaha.
All this motivation is driving me to want to start blogging again! I forgot how great it felt to blog. New theme and new posts coming up!
Not that anyone but me cares.
Ugh, stop feeling so much.
"I bet you think I either moved on or hate you, cause each time you reach out there’s no reply. I bet it never ever occurred to you that I can’t say hello to you and risk another goodbye. It’s probably better off this way. I confess babe, in my dreams you’re touching my face and asking me if I want to try again with you and I almost do.
I just want to tell you, it takes everything in me not to call you. I wish I could run to you, and I hope you know that every time I don’t, I almost do.”
Technically it’s the 5th of July now since it’s midnight where I am, but I just wanted to wish you a guys a quick happy fourth of July! I hope you had a great night with friends and family :)
A new post will be up sometime tomorrow!
I’m still here!
I haven’t fallen off the face of the earth, though it may seem like it! I’m really sorry I haven’t made a legit post in over a month or two. It’s just that these past couple months of so have been soo hectic. So much has happened, I don’t even know where to begin. I’ll just start with what has happened since the last day of school, I guess!
So, I got out of classes on the 29th of May, and at first I felt so excited and stress free that junior year was finally over! But that was short lived because that exact same day that school got out, I had to start my new internship with the biological sciences department at the university in my town. I thought this four week internship would be the perfect and easy cherry on top for my college apps, but boy was I wrong. This internship, even though it was only for 4 weeks, was so time consuming. I was working 15+ hours and that was only over the course of like 2 days. I don’t even know how many hours I ended up working in the time span of a week. And this went on for four whole weeks! My last day working on this is tomorrow and I’m so glad I’ll be done. Then I’ll finally have some more time to enjoy summer and relax with my friends. But then in a couple weeks or so, I’ll be starting another internship…plus summer AP Bio, AP english and another AP class’s homework…booo ):
All that summer work isn’t the only thing that has been killing my mood lately though. Some of you may have noticed my mopey tweets/posts..and some of you may have ignored them (which I suggest, because I can be so depressing ahah), but for those of you that don’t know.. Caleb and I broke up last week. Jeez, I just realized we’ve only been broken up as of last week but it feels like so much longer… I’ve been hesitant to talk about this very much because it still hurts so much to even just think about it. We were together for over a year and ending this way really caught me off guard. I’m not ready to tell anyone but close friends, why we broke up, but I just want to thank all the people that cared about me when I was really hurting earlier last week. You guys were really so sweet and so nice to me. Even people that I had never talked to before, sent me messages making sure I was okay. Thank you guys so much. Even though it may not seem like it, but you guys really did make me feel better <3 All I really want right now is to spend time with close family and friends, busy myself with things to do, and maybe a nice playlist of good music, and a tub of ben & jerrys to help.